Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Not far away...

I cannot believe its been just over 2 months since my life changed forever..AGAIN. I am generally happy and content and I am not sure if I belong in this place anymore. Of course I think of my baby Noah .. many times a day. I think of him as a tiny wee one and as the imagined toddler that he would be now. And sometimes the tears well up or even spill over..but its not intense - in fact it has not really been intense for quite a while...even before Morgan came. I guess I am healing, and feel quite balanced and just used to my altered existence which is parenting my 3 children in very different ways. An almost teen, a tiny one and one that I so wish I could have with me.
But I still check in every day or so and am so pleased to see the recent couple of babies arrive.."well done mamas" and am still holding out to see many others get their BFP and happy ending too.
I know that I am always going to miss my baby and I expect I will ALWAYS have moments of that feeling when your tummy falls away and the tears come so quickly and the feelings just flood back.. but I know they are less and less..
So I enjoy my new little man and oh so gently and tenderly remember my other.


Hope's Mama said...

You still belong here sadly, don't worry about that. No one can revoke their membership card to this awful club, although I wish we all could.
New pictures of Morgan soon?

Cara said...

Ange - Hope's Mama is right. You are stuck with us...whether you are having a 'back there' day or not. Always here... (hugs)

ezra'smommy said...

I'm just so glad to know there's some happiness on the other side. Indeed, we need updated Morgan pics!

BasilBean said...

It's good to hear from you Ange and I always appreciate knowing you are around. I'm glad to hear that you are doing so well. I agree that some new pictures of Morgan would be gladly appreciated:)

banbear2 said...

Finding other mommies who have made it through to "the other side" is one of the things that kept me going through my pregnancy. Glad things are going well for you!

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